Jun 132017

I stepped on the scale at 5:30am this morning and frowned. The neon blue numbers weren’t what I wanted to see. They were however, what I expected. On the car ride to work I spent some time mulling over what I was going to let the numbers mean to me and what sort of action, if any, they would inspire. A conclusion came to me rather quickly…

I am currently not trying to lose weight. Instead, I am focused on getting enough sleep, drinking lots of water, logging all my food in MyFitnessPal, and staying active. My current goal is feel better, get stronger, and increase my endurance. If weight loss happens to be a byproduct of the work I am putting in to achieving these goals, hooray!

Last summer was rough. I tripped going down a flight of stairs and tore up my previously broken ankle. On the same day my best friend shattered her leg and spent the rest of the summer in and out of the hospital for surgeries and infections. As soon as she was stable, I had to have surgery on my ankle. All the wonderful sunny days Ohio has to offer in the summer were wasted on me. I didn’t go swimming once. I can’t remember going for any walks, and I definitely didn’t spend enough time sitting on the porch with a book.

This summer I want to swim, walk, and lounge. I want to get up at 4:30am and go to the gym before work at least 2 days a week (I’d still like to go first thing the rest of the week, but perhaps not so early), for a few different reasons. One, the sun is normally coming up when I leave. It feels good to roll down the windows and enjoy the fresh air on my way home/to work. Two, the energy I have for the rest of the day is AMAZEBALLS! Three, if I can get in this routine of getting up and out of the house early in the mornings now, it’ll be easier to do when winter comes and it’s no longer pleasurable to do so. Snow, ice, wind, and cold are not my friend.

Despite choosing not to focus on my weight this summer I am going to continue weighing in on Tuesday mornings and posting the numbers. I’ll also be checking in on my goals from the previous week and setting new ones for the week to come.

Weigh In:

Made it through an entire battle ropes class without quitting.
Went down the slides at the outdoor pool, didn’t get stuck or drown. Irrational fear conquered!

Goal Check In:
Since is the “first” week of Tuesday Timeout I don’t have much to say, yet. Stay tuned for next weeks ramble.

New Goals:

  • Reduce liquid calorie intake.
  • Eat smaller portion at dinner.
  • Follow workout schedule.
 Posted by at 8:25 am
Sep 022014

I skipped last weeks timeout without realizing it. The past two weeks have been… rough. My Grandfather had a heart attack and died, the ceiling in our bathroom had to be ripped out because of a leak, and for several days in a row we were wading through water in our kitchen and hallway due to a clogged condensation line in the air conditioning unit. Maintenance was in and out all week and my sleep schedule was thoroughly trashed.

Last Monday I went to my first party as an adult (I know!) and drank entirely too much. The mosqitos decided I was a buffet and I still have angry red welts marching up and down my legs. The party was worth it though, it helped take the edge off a brutal week at work and I got to know some of my co-workers better.

Nick has joined me on the journey towards good health and I couldn’t be happier. Having a partner to go through this with makes it much more enjoyable. Here’s a picture he took of me for a private weight loss group I am a part of. The assignment was to take a picture of ourselves in “warrior” gear, otherwise known as workout clothes. I had just got done walking over 2 miles so I figured what better time to strike a warrior pose? Ignore the dirty kitchen!



And here is a picture of one of my favorite meals this week. Food photographer I am not! It was tasty though. Baked “Fried” ChickenGarlic Snap Peas, and half a white potato that I baked and then cut in to wedges and seasoned with Onion & Herb Mrs. Dash.

Weigh In: 303lbs
Starting Weight: 360lbs. Reboot Weight: 324lbs.
Previous Weight: 310lbs. Current Loss/Gain: -6lbs.
Total Loss: 57lbs. Reboot Loss: 20lbs.

– 64+ ounces of water daily. – Accomplished
– Take meds daily. – Needs work
– 7+ hours sleep daily. – Needs work
– Track daily. – Accomplished

Keep tracking and drinking water.

Take meds daily.
7+ hours sleep daily.
Workout 5 days a week.

 Posted by at 1:38 am
Aug 192014

Sexy and I Know It

I am on track! Simply put, this week rocked. I took my meds, drank my water, tracked my food, and invested myself in my health. Reducing my coffee and taking trazadone at bedtime has led to much better sleep and for the most part, better focus. I haven’t tracked my blood pressure to see if there have been any changes but I do feel less puffy now that my bp meds have been changed.

Bad choices were still made though. I indulged in seconds on a few occasions and a few days struggled with sticking to 8 ounces of coffee. For the most part though I stuck with it and even when I did mess up I tracked it all. The source of stress I spoke about last week is still there but we seem to have a better handle on it as a couple and have seen some positive strides towards a good outcome this week.

By the end of the day I will be sporting a Fitbit Flex (paired with a new Samsung Galaxy S5) and will be back either next Tuesday or later this week to let you know how it’s working for me.

Weigh In: 310lbs
Starting Weight: 360lbs. Reboot Weight: 324lbs.
Previous Weight: 313lbs. Current Loss/Gain: -3lbs.
Total Loss: 50lbs. Reboot Loss: 14lbs.

Keep up the good work!
– 64+ ounces of water daily.
– Take meds daily.
– 7+ hours sleep daily.
– Track daily.

I hammered these goals this week but am going to hold back from adding in an activity goal for one more week.


 Posted by at 12:22 pm
Jul 012014

Thursday Timeout doesn’t have the same ‘ring’ to it was Tuesday Timeouts so I made the decision to switch back. It’s been a while since I blogged and I want to ramble before getting in to the normal Tuesday update stuff.

In my last Time (the doomed Thursday attempt) one of my goals was to take my meds every day. When doing this becomes a struggle for me ALL other goals suffer. So when I started faltering I stopped worrying about tracking food or working out. For the past six weeks I have been focusing on medication and water intake above all else. I’m happy to report that save for a few missed days (mostly mornings) I have been successful! I mentioned water intake because holyfreakingcrap do bipolar meds dry your body out. I won’t go in to the ugly details but water + meds go hand in hand for me or things get ugly fast.

It’s been a busy 6 weeks! My cat, Olivia, got sick and ended up having surgery and then while she was recovering I got sick. Adjusting to Ohio weather and allergy triggers (yo tree pollen, I’m looking at you) finally caught up with me and I was laid up for a week on the couch with a head cold that was threatening to migrate down in to my chest. My boyfriend was appalled at the amount of tissue I went through although I think he found parts of how I coped amusing. There was always 3 to 5 drinks at my side! Water, tea, coffee, Powerade, and sometimes a soda.

Do you drink soda when you’re sick? I find the bubbles soothing on my throat and feel like colas help with mucus residue. This is probably not true but as someone who has a perpetually itchy throat I do what I have to do to. Luckily we had already set up a futon in the second bedroom so we were both able to get some sleep and I could keep a close eye on Oli while she was recovering from surgery. Luckily she is fine now and all the concerns about kidney and thyroid functions are cleared up although the first two weeks afterwards I was terrified I had lost my sweet easy going cat forever. She attacked me viciously and almost got her claws in the repairman who was here to fix the leaking air conditioner. That is a story in and of itself but I will skip it because the memory of stinky wet carpet and a hot day aren’t all that interesting.

In other news I have started work. YAY!! And after 3 weeks of trying to acclimate to a dayshift schedule I am finally back on nights. Double YAY!! Having nearly 6 weeks off after moving was a blessing in disguise though. Nick and I needed that time together. He telecommutes so we were able to really get to know each other in a face-to-face fashion and find a routine that works well for us. I do most of the cooking, dishes, and laundry… he takes out the trash, makes coffee, feeds the animals, and handles most of our finances. Things might change a little bit now that I’m back on nights (he works nights too) but all in all I think we’ve hit our stride as a couple.

I turned 30 in June and because of our conflicting schedules Nick and I weren’t able to celebrate until last weekend. Our original plan was to go to LaRosa’s for gluten free pizza and then go see The Edge of Tomorrow but plans changed at the last minute and we went to Outback Steakhouse since I had never been. The gluten free menu was ok. There was a decent amount of choices when it came to entrees but their sides were lacking. All vegetables had to be ordered without seasoning and mashed potatoes weren’t an option. I ended up having Victoria’s Filet and Lobster Tail with a baked potato and roasted broccoli. It was delicious! Our server was sweet and thorough and made a point of going back in to the kitchen and clarifying a few details about the meals gluten free status for me. The steak was perfectly medium rare and the lobster tail was ok. I had never tried lobster before and found it to be incredibly salty, it made me miss the wide array of fresh seafood available in Oregon, specifically crab. It was a good night though, we ended it with candle shopping and wine.

One last thing before I share the normal Timeout details… I LOVE MY JOB! Starting at a new hospital was nerve wrecking but I am soooooo happy. They have an amazing Employee Assistance Program so I am already in therapy (for free!) and one thing this EAP system provides is case management. Another words not only do I get to talk to someone I also have the option to have a social worker who helps with appointments, medication/pharmacy, diet, and lifestyle. I’ve been referred to a psychiatrist for medication management and will also be working with the psychiatrist’s in house therapist once my health insurance kicks in. I despised my last psychiatrist and while the EAP program at my last work place did offer therapy it was only 3 sessions a year and there was no case management.

Alright, I’ve rambled long enough… on to Tuesday Timeout!

Weigh In: 319.6lbs
Starting Weight: 360lbs. Previous Weight: 324.6lbs. Current Loss/Gain: -5lbs.
I have seen the scale as low as 313lbs in the past week or two but ate a sodium heavy dinner last night so I am not stressing this mornings number.

Goals for the Week
Take my medications every single day, morning and night.
Drink at least 64ounces of water daily.
Track everyday.


 Posted by at 4:24 pm
May 152014

I am moving my Tuesday Timeout to Thursdays in hopes of the spirit of starting now rather than waiting a week to begin tracking again.

Weigh In: 324.6
Starting Weight: 360lbs, Previous Weight: 316lbs.  Current Loss/Gain: +8.6lbs.

Non Scale Victories:
I got a new job! Exactly a week after moving to Ohio I was hired by a local hospital. All my boxes are empty and the apartment is situated… and I went for my first run in a looooong time.

Life has been chaotic and busy lately. My focus has mainly been on getting settled and adjusting to life away from family and friends in a new state. My new job requires wearing a certain color of scrubs (goodbye all my pretty/colorful tops) so I spent quite a bit of time at the uniform store trying on different styles in the hospital approved navy. The 3x sets fit but were a little snug so I am determined to lose a few pounds before orientation starts in June.

Goals for the Week:

  • Workout or walk every day.
  • Track food in My Fitness Pal every day.
  • Take meds every day.
 Posted by at 8:00 am
Jun 262013

Weigh In: 312.5

Starting weight: 360lbs, Week 2 weight: 310lbs. Total loss: 48.5lbs, Weekly loss: -2.5lbs.
I’m disappointed but realize this number could be worse. My diet was a wreck, and I indulged almost every day. Going up 2.5lbs hurts, but it’s better than 5lbs.

Non Scale Victories:

I drank wine! With a friend! While watching a movie! At her house! Yeahp, definitely a victory for me. I’m not much of a social person, and tend to bail out on plans that include other people. Plus I wasn’t sure how I would tolerate alcohol on my new medications. One glass seemed to be perfect and I enjoyed the movie and her company.


For the most part last week sucked. I didn’t get enough sleep, didn’t eat or drink well, and didn’t work out like I wanted to. Working 7 days out of 8 was a bad idea, and I ended up missing meds and sleeping too much. I did make some important choices, and look forward to seeing them payout through the rest of the year. 

My garden took off and I’ve harvested all my spinach (which is already regrowing) and a good part of my collard greens. The hot peppers in the green house suffered though, and I’m not sure they are going to make it. I also lost two gold fish, which means the one left is lonely. I’ll have to deal with that this weekend.

Goal Recap:

No carbonated beverages. – About 75% successful, I had two sodas… both at the end of my long week.
Work out 3 times by Tuesday. – Failed. I only worked out once.
Stay sane. – Not sure how, but I managed this one.
No fast food. – 100% success!

Week 4 Goals:

Work out 3 times.
No carbonated beverages.
Don’t miss any meds.
No junk food.

 Posted by at 6:17 am
Jun 192013

I drafted this post in my notebook last night at work, thinking I’d get up early enough today to write it out before work. Instead I slept until the last moment and left my notebook at home by the computer. Hopefully I can remember everything. On to this weeks Tuesday Timeout!

Weigh In: 310 
Starting weight: 360lbs, Week 1 weight: 312lbs. Total loss: 50lbs, Week 1 loss: 2lbs.
I was actually pleasantly suprised to have a loss this week. Monday was my splurge today (normally it’s Wednesdays) and I had a ton of sodium, so I expected to mantain, rather than lose. Down is good!

Non Scale Victories:

I PR’d my best mile! Driving home from work I kept going over my best mile 16:52, trying to figure out how I did it, convincing myself there was no way I’d be able to beat that PR anytime soon as my normal mile is still around the 18 minute mark. Then I got to the gym and killed it.

New PR.

Medication side effects are slowly becoming a thing of the past. I feel more like me this past week, which is hard to describe. I still feel different, but the more emotional/creative side of my brain has started to push through the the fog of the mood stablizers. I do enjoy being more productive and focused though. So this new balance is encouraging.

My expirement with individual sunteas went very well, this is something I will be repeating this throughout the summer. Crazy Week at work is almost halfway over. I failed to prepare for it as well as I should have, which has made it more stressful. If this ever happens again (working 7 days out of 8) I WILL make sure I am on the ball about packing lunches, having laundry done, and the house clean before the week starts.

Goals Recap:
Track food every day. – Succes! I tracked 6 out of 7.

Stick to meal plan. – Fail. I stuck to a plan 1 day of 7.
Work out 3 times by Monday. – Succes. I am enjoying the gym, I run faster/harder on the treadmill and don’t feel as worried about dizziness/falling as I do on the road. Having access to all the other equipment is nice too. I also get sweatier, which makes me feel more succesful.

Soaked with sweat!

Drink only water, fresh juice, tea, or coffee. (Chocolate almond milk ok as a treat) : Fail. I drank soda several times.
Stay sane: Mostly succesful, better planner would be helpful.

Week 3 Goals:

No carbonated beverages.
Work out 3 times by Tuesday.
Stay sane.
No fast food.

 Posted by at 4:29 am
Jun 112013

Good afternoon! Today is my 29th birthday. Hopefully next year I will be able to say I am healthier, physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I am starting a new weekly feature on my blog. It’s fairly common on most weight-loss blogs to have a weigh-in day every week, but I found Ashleigh’s way of doing it over at Passion for Life, Love, and Health to be the most inspiring… so in a sense I am copying her. Thanks for the idea!

Weigh-in: 312lbs 

It has fluctuated a LOT this week, I’ve seen as low as 305 and as high as 317. The issue is constipation (sorry, I promise not to talk about poop on the blog a lot!) due to my medication. After failing to fix things through diet, water intake, and working out, I have added some new things in to my daily regime and hope to see a difference next week.

Non Scale Victories:

Despite not seeing a true loss this week I have seen some body changes. I am down a pants size, and down a dress size as well. My ankles aren’t as puffy, and I desperately need new pajama and scrub pants, they will not stay up.

New dress for my birthday, one size smaller than before.

This week was a mixed bag. First week back at work was awful, I haven’t felt well due to the medication… On the upside, the dizziness has finally gone away! I feel more normal mentally, like something in my brain is finally connected. My new computer is awesome (yay netflixs!) and I love being online again. I didn’t work out as much as I wanted, but I did get a lot of things done in the house and the garden. Look at my first bowl of spinach from the garden!

Spinach I grew myself. Mmmm.
Week 2 Goals:

Track food every day.
Stick to meal plan.
Work out 3 times by Monday.
Drink only water, fresh juice, tea, or coffee. (Chocolate almond ok as a treat)
Stay sane. (I have a crazy work schedule next week, it’s going to take everything in me to accomplish this.)

Sun tea brewing on back porch.
 Posted by at 10:04 pm