Jun 132017
 

I stepped on the scale at 5:30am this morning and frowned. The neon blue numbers weren’t what I wanted to see. They were however, what I expected. On the car ride to work I spent some time mulling over what I was going to let the numbers mean to me and what sort of action, if any, they would inspire. A conclusion came to me rather quickly…

I am currently not trying to lose weight. Instead, I am focused on getting enough sleep, drinking lots of water, logging all my food in MyFitnessPal, and staying active. My current goal is feel better, get stronger, and increase my endurance. If weight loss happens to be a byproduct of the work I am putting in to achieving these goals, hooray!

Last summer was rough. I tripped going down a flight of stairs and tore up my previously broken ankle. On the same day my best friend shattered her leg and spent the rest of the summer in and out of the hospital for surgeries and infections. As soon as she was stable, I had to have surgery on my ankle. All the wonderful sunny days Ohio has to offer in the summer were wasted on me. I didn’t go swimming once. I can’t remember going for any walks, and I definitely didn’t spend enough time sitting on the porch with a book.

This summer I want to swim, walk, and lounge. I want to get up at 4:30am and go to the gym before work at least 2 days a week (I’d still like to go first thing the rest of the week, but perhaps not so early), for a few different reasons. One, the sun is normally coming up when I leave. It feels good to roll down the windows and enjoy the fresh air on my way home/to work. Two, the energy I have for the rest of the day is AMAZEBALLS! Three, if I can get in this routine of getting up and out of the house early in the mornings now, it’ll be easier to do when winter comes and it’s no longer pleasurable to do so. Snow, ice, wind, and cold are not my friend.

Despite choosing not to focus on my weight this summer I am going to continue weighing in on Tuesday mornings and posting the numbers. I’ll also be checking in on my goals from the previous week and setting new ones for the week to come.

Weigh In:
342lbs

Victories:
Made it through an entire battle ropes class without quitting.
Went down the slides at the outdoor pool, didn’t get stuck or drown. Irrational fear conquered!

Goal Check In:
Since is the “first” week of Tuesday Timeout I don’t have much to say, yet. Stay tuned for next weeks ramble.

New Goals:

  • Reduce liquid calorie intake.
  • Eat smaller portion at dinner.
  • Follow workout schedule.
 Posted by at 8:25 am
Jun 122017
 

Nearly 3 years have passed since I sat down to write a blog post. In that time a lot has happened. My About Me page will definitely need an update if I stick with blogging this time around. The one thing that hasn’t changed in those 3 years is my weight, at least not permanently. There have been stretches of time when I’ve stayed on track and managed to lose a chunk, like June of 2015 when I was down to 280. On the flip side of that there have been times where I have ballooned back up to almost 350, like right now.

I’m not sure of my actual weight at the moment, it’s been a few weeks since I had the courage to step on the scale. My hope is to pick up where I left off with blogging, so tomorrow should be Tuesday Timeout. I’ll step on the scale in the morning and see exactly where I’m at. This will give me a good “starting” point as well. As of right now, I’m writing for myself. The plan is use the blog as a way to track my achievements and pitfalls, to chronicle the healthier choices I have been trying to make and to work through some of the sticky thinking and bad habits I am still plagued by.

Which leads me to this weekend… it was wonderful! My birthday was the 11th and I spent the weekend celebrating with family and friends. My shoulders are pink from a little too much sun at the pool, and my belly still remembers all the delicious food consumed. This morning I got up at 4:20 and went to the gym for my first battle ropes class. Oh my word, am I sore now! It was excruciating and wonderful. At times I could barely lift my arms, and of course I made the rookie mistake of not bringing my water in to the class. Once it was over (yay!) I hit the shower and hurried to work.

Surprisingly, my energy level is high and despite being sore I feel great. Getting out of bed an hour earlier to go for a walk or do yoga doesn’t do it for me, but getting out of bed to go slam ropes in to the ground… apparently that does. Luckily there are classes at my Y every Monday and Thursday so I could easily make a habit out of going if I try hard enough.

 Posted by at 11:26 am
Sep 062014
 

Our menu this week is a nice mix of old favorites and new recipes. I am pretty creative in the kitchen and don’t always need a recipe to fall back on but absolutely enjoy trying new things and over time taking a recipe and making my own little edits to come up with something that suits us.

I am not the pickiest eater ever but I do have a few things on my NO list and today I added another. Cod. UGH! Fresh tuna is my favorite fish, salmon and steelhead trout tie a close second, after that I can tolerate tilapia, and of course catfish with a crispy cornmeal crust holds a special place in my heart. And then there is fresh crab. Mmmm. Red Rock and Dungeness are my favorites but I also enjoy Alaskan King. I’ve only tried lobster once, squid twice, and definitely love shrimp!

The point is I was expecting to enjoy cod. Unfortunately I didn’t. One bite was enough to turn my stomach and the four I took after that just made things worse. Luckily Nick enjoyed the meal and will eat the leftovers but the house reeks and my head hurts. When he’s not looking I may chuck it all, Tupperware included.

With that rant out of the way… let’s get on the menu! Everything this week is naturally gluten free, I think. If it isn’t I will obviously modify it so it is.

Hearty & Healthy Beef Stew with Zucchini Noodles
Shrimp Avocado Salad with Spinach & Apple Noodle Salad
Teriyaki Chicken & Broccoli with Butternut Squash Rice
Crockpot Taco Soup
Buffalo Chicken & Potato Skillet
Chili Roasted Cod with Zucchini Ribbons
Turkey Meatloaf Muffins with Garlic Snap Peas
Chex “Fried” Baked Chicken with Roasted Cabbage
Tiramisu Protein Pancakes with Fruit Salad

Obviously I am getting a lot of use out of my newest kitchen toy, the Paderno Spiral Vegetable Slicer. We’ve had it a little over a week and have used it almost every other day.

 Posted by at 8:01 am
Sep 022014
 

I skipped last weeks timeout without realizing it. The past two weeks have been… rough. My Grandfather had a heart attack and died, the ceiling in our bathroom had to be ripped out because of a leak, and for several days in a row we were wading through water in our kitchen and hallway due to a clogged condensation line in the air conditioning unit. Maintenance was in and out all week and my sleep schedule was thoroughly trashed.

Last Monday I went to my first party as an adult (I know!) and drank entirely too much. The mosqitos decided I was a buffet and I still have angry red welts marching up and down my legs. The party was worth it though, it helped take the edge off a brutal week at work and I got to know some of my co-workers better.

Nick has joined me on the journey towards good health and I couldn’t be happier. Having a partner to go through this with makes it much more enjoyable. Here’s a picture he took of me for a private weight loss group I am a part of. The assignment was to take a picture of ourselves in “warrior” gear, otherwise known as workout clothes. I had just got done walking over 2 miles so I figured what better time to strike a warrior pose? Ignore the dirty kitchen!

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And here is a picture of one of my favorite meals this week. Food photographer I am not! It was tasty though. Baked “Fried” ChickenGarlic Snap Peas, and half a white potato that I baked and then cut in to wedges and seasoned with Onion & Herb Mrs. Dash.

Weigh In: 303lbs
Starting Weight: 360lbs. Reboot Weight: 324lbs.
Previous Weight: 310lbs. Current Loss/Gain: -6lbs.
Total Loss: 57lbs. Reboot Loss: 20lbs.

GOALS:
LAST TIMEOUT:
– 64+ ounces of water daily. – Accomplished
– Take meds daily. – Needs work
– 7+ hours sleep daily. – Needs work
– Track daily. – Accomplished

THIS WEEK
Keep tracking and drinking water.

Take meds daily.
7+ hours sleep daily.
Workout 5 days a week.

 Posted by at 1:38 am
Aug 232014
 

We’ve eaten a lot of the same food the past month or so due to money. Lots of simple stuff like salmon, chicken, and potatoes. This week we are better off and you can really see the difference in our menu. Nick is on board with me now and we are branching out to try new things. I will let you know the verdict on how they come out!  Another change we are making is replacing sour cream with plain Greek yogurt.

MENU

Meals:
Beef Stirfry + Rice
Shrimp Tacos
Turkey Muffins
Banana Pancakes
Zucchini Boat Enchiladas
Bacon + Cheddar Cauliflower Chowder
Crispy Baked Chicken + Asparagus
Spinach Salad w/Salmon + Berries
Broccoli + Egg Muffins

Snacks:
Overnight Oats
Salads
Leftovers
Yogurt
Nuts
Granola Bars
Baked Potatoes
Eggs
Veggies
Fruit
Popcorn

 Posted by at 1:16 pm
Aug 192014
 

Sexy and I Know It

I am on track! Simply put, this week rocked. I took my meds, drank my water, tracked my food, and invested myself in my health. Reducing my coffee and taking trazadone at bedtime has led to much better sleep and for the most part, better focus. I haven’t tracked my blood pressure to see if there have been any changes but I do feel less puffy now that my bp meds have been changed.

Bad choices were still made though. I indulged in seconds on a few occasions and a few days struggled with sticking to 8 ounces of coffee. For the most part though I stuck with it and even when I did mess up I tracked it all. The source of stress I spoke about last week is still there but we seem to have a better handle on it as a couple and have seen some positive strides towards a good outcome this week.

By the end of the day I will be sporting a Fitbit Flex (paired with a new Samsung Galaxy S5) and will be back either next Tuesday or later this week to let you know how it’s working for me.

Weigh In: 310lbs
Starting Weight: 360lbs. Reboot Weight: 324lbs.
Previous Weight: 313lbs. Current Loss/Gain: -3lbs.
Total Loss: 50lbs. Reboot Loss: 14lbs.

GOALS:
Keep up the good work!
– 64+ ounces of water daily.
– Take meds daily.
– 7+ hours sleep daily.
– Track daily.

I hammered these goals this week but am going to hold back from adding in an activity goal for one more week.

 

 Posted by at 12:22 pm
Aug 122014
 

It’s been a while but I refuse to feel guilty about my lack of updating here. First and foremost my priority has to be accountability to myself, not the world wide web. In my last post I mentioned that my focus has been largely on taking my meds, drinking enough water, and tracking my food. I’ve managed to be pretty consistent with my meds, the rest not so much. There are plenty of reasons why and none of them really matter.

I’ve decided to call this phase of my journey the reboot to help keep things clear in my own mind. Part of the Reboot has been devoted to self care. Time alone, small indulgences, days off when I need them, trips to the library, and spending quality time with Nick. Another part includes taking full advantage of my health insurance and getting things on track medically. My new general provider is pretty damn cool. She made a small adjustment to my blood pressure medication, insisted I eat more protein and promptly referred me to a physical therapist when asked.

The new psychiatrist is cool too. She also made a small medication adjustment and encouraged me to try a sleeping pill that I had bad luck with last summer. So far it seems to be working much better than before. A large part of this could be that I have reduced my coffee intake from 32 ounces a day to 8 ounces. 1 cup. That’s it. I won’t lie and say that this has been easy or fun and I am only 5 days in but I am glad she challenged me to try it.

In other news work is going well. Life is busy and there some sources of stress I am coping with but nothing major. I will try and check in here more often.

On to the stats!

Weigh In: 313lbs
Starting Weight: 360lbs. Reboot Weight: 324lbs.
Previous Weight: 319lbs. Current Loss/Gain: -6lbs.
Total Loss: 47lbs. Reboot Loss: 11lbs.

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 Posted by at 8:00 am
Jul 012014
 

Thursday Timeout doesn’t have the same ‘ring’ to it was Tuesday Timeouts so I made the decision to switch back. It’s been a while since I blogged and I want to ramble before getting in to the normal Tuesday update stuff.

In my last Time (the doomed Thursday attempt) one of my goals was to take my meds every day. When doing this becomes a struggle for me ALL other goals suffer. So when I started faltering I stopped worrying about tracking food or working out. For the past six weeks I have been focusing on medication and water intake above all else. I’m happy to report that save for a few missed days (mostly mornings) I have been successful! I mentioned water intake because holyfreakingcrap do bipolar meds dry your body out. I won’t go in to the ugly details but water + meds go hand in hand for me or things get ugly fast.

It’s been a busy 6 weeks! My cat, Olivia, got sick and ended up having surgery and then while she was recovering I got sick. Adjusting to Ohio weather and allergy triggers (yo tree pollen, I’m looking at you) finally caught up with me and I was laid up for a week on the couch with a head cold that was threatening to migrate down in to my chest. My boyfriend was appalled at the amount of tissue I went through although I think he found parts of how I coped amusing. There was always 3 to 5 drinks at my side! Water, tea, coffee, Powerade, and sometimes a soda.

Do you drink soda when you’re sick? I find the bubbles soothing on my throat and feel like colas help with mucus residue. This is probably not true but as someone who has a perpetually itchy throat I do what I have to do to. Luckily we had already set up a futon in the second bedroom so we were both able to get some sleep and I could keep a close eye on Oli while she was recovering from surgery. Luckily she is fine now and all the concerns about kidney and thyroid functions are cleared up although the first two weeks afterwards I was terrified I had lost my sweet easy going cat forever. She attacked me viciously and almost got her claws in the repairman who was here to fix the leaking air conditioner. That is a story in and of itself but I will skip it because the memory of stinky wet carpet and a hot day aren’t all that interesting.

In other news I have started work. YAY!! And after 3 weeks of trying to acclimate to a dayshift schedule I am finally back on nights. Double YAY!! Having nearly 6 weeks off after moving was a blessing in disguise though. Nick and I needed that time together. He telecommutes so we were able to really get to know each other in a face-to-face fashion and find a routine that works well for us. I do most of the cooking, dishes, and laundry… he takes out the trash, makes coffee, feeds the animals, and handles most of our finances. Things might change a little bit now that I’m back on nights (he works nights too) but all in all I think we’ve hit our stride as a couple.

I turned 30 in June and because of our conflicting schedules Nick and I weren’t able to celebrate until last weekend. Our original plan was to go to LaRosa’s for gluten free pizza and then go see The Edge of Tomorrow but plans changed at the last minute and we went to Outback Steakhouse since I had never been. The gluten free menu was ok. There was a decent amount of choices when it came to entrees but their sides were lacking. All vegetables had to be ordered without seasoning and mashed potatoes weren’t an option. I ended up having Victoria’s Filet and Lobster Tail with a baked potato and roasted broccoli. It was delicious! Our server was sweet and thorough and made a point of going back in to the kitchen and clarifying a few details about the meals gluten free status for me. The steak was perfectly medium rare and the lobster tail was ok. I had never tried lobster before and found it to be incredibly salty, it made me miss the wide array of fresh seafood available in Oregon, specifically crab. It was a good night though, we ended it with candle shopping and wine.

One last thing before I share the normal Timeout details… I LOVE MY JOB! Starting at a new hospital was nerve wrecking but I am soooooo happy. They have an amazing Employee Assistance Program so I am already in therapy (for free!) and one thing this EAP system provides is case management. Another words not only do I get to talk to someone I also have the option to have a social worker who helps with appointments, medication/pharmacy, diet, and lifestyle. I’ve been referred to a psychiatrist for medication management and will also be working with the psychiatrist’s in house therapist once my health insurance kicks in. I despised my last psychiatrist and while the EAP program at my last work place did offer therapy it was only 3 sessions a year and there was no case management.

Alright, I’ve rambled long enough… on to Tuesday Timeout!

Weigh In: 319.6lbs
Starting Weight: 360lbs. Previous Weight: 324.6lbs. Current Loss/Gain: -5lbs.
I have seen the scale as low as 313lbs in the past week or two but ate a sodium heavy dinner last night so I am not stressing this mornings number.

Goals for the Week
Take my medications every single day, morning and night.
Drink at least 64ounces of water daily.
Track everyday.

 

 Posted by at 4:24 pm